fantas-tonishing

A mess would be an understatement. Let me start from the beginning... I am with someone. A great someone, who cares about me and is just so sweet and thoughtful. He is awesome. Now, a long time ago I was with someone. He was my first real relationship. He was a lot of firsts for me in fact. And now, we remain good friends. I can talk to him in a way I can't with anyone else. Well, due to recent happenings, I realized that I still had a some feelings for this guy. I had kept it in my head for a while, but I was so bothered with keeping it to myself that I let the cat out of the bag. I told him how I felt. We briefly talked about it

Sometimes all you want is one person to talk to. All you need is just that one person to just be there and listen. Not offer help or condolences, but just be there. Be that comfort you need. And I know I have that person, right now it's just so foggy and confusing... He's a great person, genuine and kind, just that, I guess somethings I don't agree with... And it confuses me. He's just really great, and it's just me that's making it confusing. They're nothing but absolutely nice to me and I am totally comfortable around him... And that's an amazing feeling. I just make everything so damn difficult.. I could take this to a whole other step u

Well, I'm here to inform anyone reading my journals that starting Monday, August 13, 2012 at 7:50 (uh mountain standard, I think> I dunno.) I will officially be a senior in high school *crowd starts cheering, whoo!* This is my last year of public education, as well as my last year as a kid in the eyes of the law. It's so weird, my life will literally change in four months. I will be a legal adult. Excited? Oh hell yes I am, I have it down to days! (128 to be specific). However, I'm having a bit of Peter Pan Syndrome. I don't want to grow up! Wouldn't it be awesome to stay young and free forever, but have all the bonuses of being an adult? At